▼ childhood headcanon

omg BABY LU… ok i have a good amount of headcanons for him too, not as much as andrew but here we go

so as a baby i imagine him as like, already a people person. like at home he’s a terror, crying and screaming and being really needy all the time, but when his mom takes him out on the town he’s the happiest baby, all smiley and sociable. other ppl stop his mom all the time to look in the stroller and compliment him, “omg, hes an angel” “just look at him hes so beautiful”  etc etc. even tho his mom knew he was actually the devil. so basically just like lu as a teen lmao

as a little kid he was prolly really spoiled mostly bc of tantrums, his mom would always give him shit if it would shut him up, and this only got worse when his dad left… he’d drive his mom nuts nagging and whining until he got his way… he still liked going out but if they were not going where he wanted to go or doing what he wanted to do or if he didnt get the toy he wanted or had to eat something he didnt like it would be tantrum time again and he would always win. so basically he was a major brat

and as he got older he just got worse, more rebellious, more disobedient… he lashed out a lot due to unresolved abandonment issues and general emotional instability, he did whatever he wanted and disrespected authority and got into trouble all the time, but no amount of scolding could stop him, he was just a ~free spirit… his mom put him in boy scouts to get him off her hands and maybe teach him some life lessons and thats when he met david… i have the headcanon that he ran away on the first day and david was sent to go find him and was able to bring him back… but the rest of thats being saved for a fic i wanna write B)

★ sad headcanon

i asked u on twitter for something more specific than “sad” and you said prison-time lucien, which is HONESTLY THE SADDEST THING, bc i know even though he still hung out with his friends and did crazy shit irl lucien was never the same after his prison sentence… he got a job, settled down, started workin 4 the man like everyone else instead of trying to start a revolution… sigh, its so sad to think about!!! :( he obviously wanted to keep a low profile after getting out of jail and asked all his friends not to publish his name in their books and not delve into it… it must have caused him a lot of pain to think about the murder and he was definitely scared, so scared, like when he first confessed he thought he might be put to death or put in jail for the rest of his life so of course he held true to his “honor slaying” story as soon as it was presented to him as a way out, no matter how complicated his actual relationship with david was, or how the murder actually went down…

…ok wow now im just ranting abt irl lucien, lemme get back on track: HEADCANONS. anyway i imagine him missing his friends a LOT, missing the freedom of running around getting into trouble every night, missing the laughter and the booze and the adoring gaze of allen and his other admirers… prison has a way of making you feel small and insignificant. he probably also missed david, as much as he didn’t want to; he missed when things were good, when they’d had their perfect day… before he’d started to feel suffocated by the unrequited feelings david had for him… when things weren’t so complicated. he probably had nightmares, nightmares that david was still there watching him sleep, that he hadn’t really gotten rid of him, that he would be looming over him all his life… he probably also dreamed of good times with david which were just as bad as the nightmares because as nice as they were while he was having them, when he awoke, the crushing reality that he had murdered him would knock the air out of his lungs… but he didn’t regret doing it, or at least didn’t allow himself to. he needed to be free of him, and now he was – but freedom didn’t feel so good spent behind bars.